Off days...

Went to the mall again before catching a movie at downtown Disney. "Now you see me" pretty cool movie that leaves you feeling mindfucked in the end because at conclusion you'd be like "wait whutttt?"

That night was also the start of my sudden mood swings, I guess I was very tired.
Went blizzard beach the next day with LC and cadence. Feeling like a little loser with the mood dragging me down. ):
Dinner at Applebee's:

P.s don't you agree that the guy in the Instagram screen shot looked like XS?
HAHAHA

Miami

Just gonna party and make the most out if the 2 months I'm left with.

Miami was good, had a blast.

More updates soon I guess.

Juice blender

I guess I was too exhausted, sleeping 5-6hours a day, and spending most of my time outside during my off days.

Mood swings, fatigue, that reluctance and inability to smile or talk normally.
That negative and insecure feeling which made you feel that everyone don't like you anymore.
It's horrible.
Even at work.
I'm still struggling to fit in because I'm so soft spoken and shy I dont even dare to talk to anyone as I'm tongue tied most of the time.
It's never in my nature to approach anyone unless I'm feeling extremely confident. That's a downside to this.

I need to be left alone at times.
I need to get a book and chill by the poolside or do some retail therapy.
When I'm alone, I get all the time in the world to think. To figure out my problems.

It's been months since I felt this way. Those personal issues. Usually it'd about my bf or else, the stress from not studying for my papers. But this time, it's just back to me.
I miss everyone.
I think it's because everything's moving too quickly here in the US, I had to stop and catch my breath. And realized I haven't been focusing on the little stuffs.
I've been too caught up on the shopping, and internship, just going out everyday .
Feels like I haven't spend a reasonable amount of time with my aunt or mom, or best friends or xs.
I know I'm rambling and it doesn't even make sense but that's exactly what I need. Because that's how I'm feeling inside. Messed up and disorganized all of a sudden.

Off days.

Day offs
Did I mention how much I enjoy shopping alone? Been heading to the outlets and shopping alone for 3-4 hours.
But I also enjoy shopping with the girls. It was fun.
In Wednesday, I spent some alone time just shopping and then hanging out with cadence, Alison and the two Mexican Girls Karla & Livia, whom we met at the welcome party.
Karla actually went to MCR concert *.*
And Livia is more of a hippie haha
Looking forward to meeting new people.

Yesterday I went out with LC and Gervina. We reached the millennia mall only at 6plus and Gervina left because she wasn't feeling well. Shopping with LC is pretty chill because we hve the same taste and we just do it. Little hesitations. we decided it'd be such a waste if we don't eat good food and so we dined at some grilled fine dining place because the Cheesecake Factory was crowded. Waiting time :40mins
But we bought the cheesecake anyway. I took the dulce de leuche caramel one, it was awesomeeeee.

Anyway the steak is pretty good and cheap as compared to SG. Although its draining my pocket, if we think logically, it's so worth it because I'd be spending double on nothing in Singapore. There you go.

Simplicity is complicated.

I really want us to work out. Why is that so hard?

Drifting away into a place I never knew existed.

Cannot explain that addiction to angels by the xx.
I know it's damn long ago but the last time I listened to it months ago, it didn't catch me as easily as the time on the plane.

It's like some heavenly soothing music that relaxes my mind and soul and gives me some sort of feeling which I can't even explain, and though I was in a daze im clearly aware that my mind was addicted to this.
Even now when I play their songs I'd just drift off and I actually like that feeling. It feels like I'm floating.

Week 3

Life's great for now. I'm settling down real quick, didn't need time to get used to anything because I'm lovin it here. This is probably the first time I'm so optimistic about something because I'm always a pessimist, being afraid that when everything goes too well, the next thing will be a downfall.

Been going shopping with the Homies,
The best part is realizing there are people similar to you and finding it in DTRM, it's a nice surprise.
Went Hollywood studios and Epcot so far and I had fun with em.
Shopping with the girls was great too, especially LC. HAHA we get along really well.
So we shopped at international premium outlet ytd, and went crazy at all the summer sales. Kate spade/coach an more. awwwyeah
I had work at 6pm though, but WHO GETS THE TIME TO WORK WHEN SHOPPING IS SO MUCH FUN? Called in sick, because LC put that idea into my head and I couldn't resist it. Damn son haha had lunch at some Italian restaurant, enjoying steak and all. It was my kind of ideal lifestyle, shopping and eating good food...
And then we explored around and checked out the tattoo parlors.
I'm really set on getting one, if not two.
It's gonna be a new phase.

Welcome party was on Thursday, it wasn't too bad, actually pretty alright even without the alcohol. Though I felt a lil out of place after a while. I wished I was a Lil more outspoken. Can never find the space to speak up when everyone around me just explodes.
And currently I'm about to be late for work.

So xx

P.s the other day on the plane when I was still half stoned, I actually listened to the xx
And damn they were so good. Or at least, I believed that was what I felt in my trippy head while in a daze.

And I missed my friends and BFF. And my family and yoda leia. Skype aunt last night to show her my loots, and I cried when I saw my two little babies.